I feel like the selfies are basically fake, a trick of software and good angles, I’m also kinda convicened the one st a distance in the black top is pixel camera shangeans. I feel like realstixlly the graduation one is how most people see me. I just hate how I look, and I feel awful. I almost feel like HRT hasn’t done anytging, maybe it can’t for me. Maybe male puberty just hit too hard? If I got off of HRT lost 100 pounds than started again would it see acual effects
You need therapy. This is one of many posts you’ve made about this, but I think you’re ignoring people’s advice.
There is also lots of experimentation you can do within HRT treatment itself if you want to. Different AA/GnHRa, different oestrogen intake method/dose (monitor bloods), progesterone.
There’s also surgeries if you’re desperate, but I think above all you need therapy, you need to learn to love yourself as you are. Otherwise you will just keep going round and round in this depression cycle, and nothing will get better.
I think this is a case of “hit the gym, workout to get the body you want”. A lot of people are quick to blame transitioning or HRT but wouldn’t have been happy in their original state either.
What do you do if your broke lmao, suicide I guess??? Even then wouldn’t I need to get off hrt cause I think I’m permently hijdgerijg my progress by trying to use it while I’m horrobily overweight
planet fitness is $10/month if you’re in a US city.
running and body weight exercises are free
do literally anything that gets you out of breath. tap dancing, yoga, pretending to be a beetle, justdance game, hopscotch, climbing a tree, reenacting historical battles, jump rope, putting on music you like and dancing badly. or if just walking - walk as fast as you can manage.
when you can go for 30 minutes without stopping, and don’t feel the least bit phased, you can start investigating more formal/traditional ways to work out (or indeed at any time ever).
the cure to depression isn’t “eat better, sleep better, drink more water, excercise,” but they are some of the foundations of feeling better. The wise man built his house upon the rock, as they say.
How did you afford HRT if you’re broke?
Anyways, not gonna nag, but I would advise against suicide. Perhaps unhelpfully, I would actually advise against home workouts as well, since they’re too easy to skip. You’re going to have to find a way to make it work though, and that won’t be easy.
