I have a long distance friend and I’ll admit we get super super flirty sometimes because of how lonely we both are.
So both of us haven’t been laid in months. 8+ for both of us.
Both of us started getting turned on the phone the other day, one thing led to another and she and I had some consexual “mutual masturbation” over the phone. Phone sex simply (cringe I know, but that itch was there)
After we had both finished I just felt sort of ashamed and gross for about an hour.
Is this normal? I’m still very inexperienced with sexuality in general because in such a shy shy guy.
Is this this what they mean when they say post nut clarity or whatever?
In my mind, what you did with your friend sounds fun and like something you both needed. It was consensual. You both came so it must’ve been fun during at least for you too. There’s no problem from what you wrote, so there must be something you didn’t mention yet which makes you feel gross and ashamed.
It’s impossible to guess what exactly you didn’t mention. Extremely religious upbringing where sexuality was taboo? Sexual abuse? Social stigma? Problematic parental relationships? Who knows