Why is this so hard? I’ve tried to do everything right, and I have more than most around me and I’m still struggling. I don’t know if I’ll be able to find a place to live.
I was in your place after graduating college. Don’t buy the house yet. Move to a temporary place, live there for 6-12 months, you’ll get a better lay of the land. You’ll know which neighborhood is right for you, start scouting houses… In that period you’ll also build your credit score, have more time on the job, save more money for a down payment; all things that count towards a better interest rate. Plus, you’ll also have time to live a little. That’s important. Life goes by fast. Too fast.
Why is this so hard? - because it is hard! if it was easy then everyone would be doing it. It’s ok to struggle, you can do this! Everything will be alright and if you do fail, you will be able to recover and learn from what didn’t go right so next time you will be successful.
Proud of you for facing tough things and reaching out for help when needed. Everything you’re feeling makes sense. You can do this, you’ve already done so much.
It is hard, but it’s also how you grow. Things will go wrong! There will be setbacks. But you won’t end up happy if you don’t keep pushing.
Buying a house takes longer than you think. Focus on your new job and let the house thing take as long as it takes.