I know this isn’t a professional space and I am seeing a therapist (for many things, this included) but I know you’ve helped me in the past so I might as well shoot again.
I am so plagued with anxiety about my partner, she’s done nothing wrong really but is getting impatient because of my seeming lack of trust and attachment and its very distressing for both of us.
I’ve kicked hard drug addiction and heavy suicidality but this attachment seriously won’t go away. I exercise, meditate, drink water and have started taking my meds again. It can help but I still find myself genuinely tweaking any time there’s anything that doesn’t add up 1000% yk?
Worse I’m going to Texas for a week soon and she cannot come so we’re going to be separated. I am very scared for my reaction. Might be a self-fulfilling prophecy but I just fear where the anxious mind can go.
I’ve identified that I have a anxious attachment style and that this is insecurity but just cannot beat it. It’s weird too because it’s not like I don’t have other connections or things I’m passionate about in my life, I’m a fucking organized communist. Even if she left me I am an in shape intelligent activist like I’m not going to die but even knowing that I’m still absolutely geeking. Does anyone get this or understand and how do you fix it
I’ve never done CBT, but EMDR tries to use methods related to sleep (like eye movement) to heal the traumas. You’re probably getting stressed and triggered, due to catastrophic thoughts that pop up in your mind. EMDR can be used to desensitize these inadequate thoughts from the past, and replace them with adequate thoughts from the present. It won’t make them disappear in one go, but over time and with exposition they will go away.