I met someone on discord last year, and I don’t quite have the words to describe the lead up. One minute we were gaming and the next minute I was in their apartment 1200 miles away, but like I said, the feelings were unreal and I can’t imagine ever finding anything like it again. Ngl a part of me feels like it will forever be pretty empty. Didn’t really scratch the surface of how much it meant to me but yeah, sometimes it’s hard to ever imagine moving on. Sucks
Happens to a lot of (most?) people, including us late bloomers. It is okay, honestly.
Took me two years to get over my first relationship. When I ended my last, abusive, relationship of ~6 years (on/off), I literally sat down and told myself that I wouldn’t be able to love or be loved by anyone again - It’s a cliché, I knew that at the time, but I honestly believed it. Every day for like a year, I was plagued with the simple thought “I am broken”.
Eventually that feeling just… faded. I joined a couple local groups, and not much later I met a hecka cool person and we hit it off.
It’s a very personal thing and it’s honestly okay to grieve a relationship for years, don’t feel bad about it. Just don’t close yourself off to the world because of it, either. In my case, spending time with people is often very helpful to renormalise and let the social bit of your brain know that all is okay, but it still takes time.