Pretty sure I have this. I feel like whenever things start to get serious I start to feel stifled and like this person is gonna make me change and I’m gonna lose my freedom lmao. I partially attribute this to my beloved smother and sfather. I am the youngest child and they were pretty overbearing lol. Obviously I appreciate it a bit more now (esp when compared to some of my friends who were pretty neglected), but I do think it sparked this sense of not wanting to come under somebody else’s will lol.