Many have boarded this train despite lacking that mythical certainty…
The doubts may plague you till the day you utter those cursed words and make it real…
The universe may continue to constrict, snuffing color from your finite existence on earth…
But many have boarded this train, so why can’t you too?
Im cis but for a while I was afraid I was only “faking” being bisexual, until someone told me “if you are afraid you might fake it, you aren’t faking it”.
That is a mantra that really helped me a lot and I hope it might also help someone else reading this
I had thoughts of faking being trans a couple of days after crying due to gender dysphoria
I have doubts of how possible it is to accidentally fake being trans. Back in my darker days when I hug out with terrible people (and also was one) I had friends who attempted to do just that to “infiltrate trans groups” and for almost every one of them it backfired and they ended up coming out as trans in one way or another.
So I think it’s more likely to fake being cis than to fake being trans.
Wait, are you serious? People actually attempted that, only to crack?
Yeah it happened to friends of mine, well I stopped being friends with them back then because I was a terrible person. I had lots of dumb transphobic explanations for why they “switched sides” but really looking back with what I know now. It’s as simple as, anyone who “wants” to be trans just is trans. If they have a lot of transphobic prejudice they may go forward to “prove” it’s a choice but they’ll learn quickly that it isn’t, once they’re hit with the euphoria, or the dysphoria, or both. That’s when it becomes apparent how little of a choice it is.
The advice, that someone already mentioned, that really drives so many things like this home for me:
If you are concerned you might be faking it, you aren’t faking it.
If you would be disappointed and sad if you weren’t trans, you probably are trans.
I 100% agree with you but for some reason my rotted brain thought this when I read your comment I am sorry
But what if I’m merely faking my concern about my faking it?
Aha! Refer to step 1 again
Aha! You can’t trap me with your recursion! It’s
turtlesfaking it all the way down.Too late its validation all the way up!
yea nu, didn do dis >v<
heheeeeeeee she said many peeps jus com to her n wait til they get their e n dun actulli discuss anythn, so i felt thad was sad n tried to mek it mor intrstng by bein lik “eh, mayb the trans bt lik - mayb nt!” n… thad went wrong direction… i ended up nt sayin anythn clearli trans cuz i thought she think “oh, dis humn jus wans them e. oh well…,… another one of these.,…,…” n now im evn worse off, big sads n tellin myslelf thad its all my fault for tryin to not mek things boring for her >//v//< heheeeeeeee still waitin for e ~
