hey. quick disclaimer: this post isn’t for job advices or recommendations, but mostly about dealing with being disabled & unemployed.
sometimes i feel pathetic i can’t find a job. and even more: i’ve never really had a job. volunteering, trading? yes, plenty of times. but the job? like, never. nothing about money, even if freelance. not even mentioning something “official”.
sometimes i even lie to people i have a job. without details or vaguely. or about job i am technically did: art or coding or gamedev for fun or trade. i feel ashamed of being like this. i feel like a burden for my partner i live with.
genuinely, i want to have work. i’m not idealistic about this, nor pessimistic. i’m not going to work in places i can’t hadle at all (social). but i really want to work. like, i already know how commissions work. i have some desires of creating something & being payed for it. or even go to the army (Ukrainian moment).
but i can’t right now. i’m already 24 y.o., and i feel like there is something wrong with me.
is there anybody with the same problems? or maybe, someone who’s dealing with it better than i am? i am open for advice or just listen to your experience.
thanks for reading.
If it helps my first real, full time job was when I was 28. Before that I was contracting and even the thing I had at 28 was technically a year to year contract although it allowed for one years notice. So it was technically contract butall work is sorta a long term contract and the year notice made it better than most.