i genuinely feel like my entire life and mindset have done a… at least a 90 by now, by somehow, somehow getting this hail mary pass off and setting this up. i can’t believe this is real life it’s very bizarre, i’m just shaking with anxiety and energy
i just feel like she’ll hate me upon first sight (this was thru an app) for some reason, she’ll sense the autism, she’ll know i’m off and the next hour will be awkward and she’ll politely say goodbye.
i mean, alternatively, it could go well, she could be cool. she seems cool which i suppose is why i did this. what is happening i cannot believe these are things that are going on in my life i feel like i was just in a major major hitting slump for 10 years, strikeout after strikeout
and then also what if she ghosts me or stands me up like in the films. what then? add it to the list of failures and try to rebuild my self image?
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You’d not probably be able to avoid fixations and doubts like these, but there’s a sober reminder that many shy people can’t land a date like you did and this person is somehow interested in you, so there you have a higher ground. If you don’t feel like speaking, ask them, as people like talking about themselves, and listen, add supportive questions about the details for them to talk more. Don’t shoot them with ‘I am on the spectrum’ and let them see for themselves if they vibe with you.