thx, btw I figured it out:

I forgot to trimm the string, so it had a line break in it which lead to grep showing the processes from the term I put in + all processes that contain <empty> and appearently all processes shown by ps aux contain some kind of space (makes sense, since there are spaces between the user, pid, etc) so yeah, I ended up trying to kill every process on the system, but it only killed the user processes, since I ran everything without sudo