Everything I do seems to be complete useless, stupid and just agonizingly boring. I usually really like my work. Learning Programming languages, solving Problems, and enjoying the small rush when something finally works like you intended. But now? Everything sucks. I know that it’s just a down-phase, but this does not help me at all. And I fucking hate myself so much that I can’t just be like “Yeah it’s a bad day, but I still manage to get my shit done.” Why can’t I be “normal”?
@Roflmasterbigpimp well, I am not experienced in helping depressed people, but my naive idea would be, that you might be better if you try to program sth. That could give you a Sense of achievement.
I really enjoined doing advent of code last year, because you have easy but still challenging code puzzles and it has the social aspect of comparing and exchanging ideas with your friends, which is really fun.
If I missed the point of your sadness, maybe just know, that your friends are there for you
@Roflmasterbigpimp That is, if you have the time for that.