35 M.

My depression and loneliness had fucked me over enough last year and since I quit my abusive job (underpaid, boss screaming at job, no benefits, hated everyone, shit conditions) things aren’t getting better. The fact I can’t get a job even at a fast food sucks (some of you Americans complain about having that job, you’re LUCKY to have that)… Job apps don’t work or always ask for experience, I can’t even get an Amazon warehouse job. Nobody calls and no, you can’t just knock random doors of business expecting to give you a job, even worse if you’re an immigrant.

My mother has enough of me living with them and I can’t blame her I’m old ass virgin dude that will never get married but seems that everything is against me and I’ll never move out. The world decided to just fuck me over. Again, the fact I can’t get a job is killing me. And no, I don’t have money for studies and this country doesn’t offer trade jobs education for people like me, I need the money NOW. Shit, I controlled this shitty town web page and hasn’t been updated in a year. The job help is a joke.

Sometimes I googled painless ways to die.