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Cake day: September 20th, 2024

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  • As far as churches, I’m finding more and more that humans are all the same. Whether Christian, socialist, literally any ideology. Most people with an ideology only want to talk about it and play at it, none of them really mean it. The bible teaches feeding those in need but not a single Christian helped me with food. Same with socialists honestly, everyone says “Hope you get it sorted comrade!” Like good wishes are going to feed me. Humans are just disingenuous creatures who want their ideology to make them feel good about themselves, but don’t want to put any actual sacrifice in. I’m resigned to human nature now.



  • citizens advice are already helping with my claim. neither they nor macmillan nor churches nor anyone give a fuck about my food situation or will do anything to help. they all fob me off and pass me to the next organisation, saying it’s their job to help. i just don’t have the energy for this any more. It’s exhausting enough having literal cancer treatment, never mind starving on top of that and continually having to search and beg for food on top of that. I can’t keep doing this.


  • Well, it seems it’s about to get worse. Even if they reinstate my PIP (and they say the appeal might not be til February) they are talking about changing them to vouchers soon. That’s no good to me, I need the cash to pay off my OD, buy food, pay for help around the house (can’t do much since I became disabled.) It’s really looking like suicide is going to be the only way out for me. I’ve met someone on a suicide pact forum and we’re discussing methods and meeting up to help each other. Nothing is going to get better, neither in my life nor with promoting socialism. It’s all pointless and I’m so tired of eing hungry and stressed all the time.



  • And you never get as long an award period as they say before they start harassing you again. I had to go through a nearly year-long appeal last time. Eventually I was awarded for 4 years. Only, the appeal had taken nearly a year, so they knocked that time off. Then they’re allowed to start assessing you again a year before the award ends. So the 4 years, was really, more like 2 before I had to go through all the stress of another assessment again. It’s so stupid. Multiple doctors have written letters of support saying my condition likely won’t improve.