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Cake day: June 14th, 2023

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  • I usually coordinate with my friends through SMS (or WhatsApp for my European friends). I had a Facebook account for some family members who are like that, but when I changed my name, I just kind of abandoned it. I’ve never had an Instagram account, and I only ever signed up for Twitter in order to enter a couple of contests. I never actually used it, and I’m not sure I even remember the password. I do have some presence on Discord, which I find distasteful, but not nearly so much as Facebook or Instagram. But again, it’s primarily to keep in contact with people I know who are part of that culture. I don’t really use it otherwise.



  • I also suffer from anxiety, and I do a lot of the same behaviours as you, including a minimal digital footprint. I have nothing useful to offer you though, aside from some comradeship. I know well how insidious anxiety is, and I do my best to avoid it creeping into my head. This means a limit on digital interactions.

    I guess the difference though that I’m old enough that having my life be online is not an expectation (although I have been questioned about it in the past, it’s not uncommon for my age or field of work). So I doubt I have the digital pressure that you do. That has to suck. I’m sorry.








  • I like to watch the TV series “Mayday: Air Crash Investigations”. The US dubs their version though, and I got curious one day. I watched the original and the US dub side by side of S3E06 “Mistaken Identity”, which was about the time that a US Aegis Cruiser shot down an Iranian passenger jet in the Persian Gulf. As I suspected, the US version was censored.

    It was very interesting which bits were censored. It was fairly obvious that they would want to cut any parts that humanised the Iranians. To my surprise, they didn’t cut the bits where the crew was praised for their actions. But the most interesting bit for me was that they cut a couple of interviews with the crew of the cruiser, where they talked about how terrified they were of the plane.

    They absolutely do not want you to know that their great invincible navy spent half their time peeing in their pants when an airliner flew overhead.



  • Oh I’m not concerned about gatekeeping. It’s more that I don’t feel I have anything to contribute really. I am very much an applied sciences sort of person.

    I have a bachelor’s degree in computer science, but have little interest in the academic side of it. I have taken many physics classes, but again, I largely steered clear of theoretical physics. I like to hear about them, and I do my best to understand them, but it’s not a career that I would be interested in. I would be far happier building bridges or designing aircraft.

    Ultimately, my physics knowledge occasionally gets used to make computer simulations, or helps me to understand new achievements in science.


  • When I wrote that, I was actually thinking about a video game. Oxygen Not Included. It’s largely a heat transfer simulation, and specific heat capacities, melting/freezing points and thermal conductivities all play heavily into your planning. The late game becomes all about engineering contraptions to change the state of matter, and I find it to be very fun. It’s also fun to share and talk about your designs.

    For actual science, I am most interested in physics. I like to watch shows on astrophysics and geology quite a bit, but I am not really qualified to talk about them in depth.


  • I was struggling with depression late last year. I disagreed with hexbear over a word definition. I got harassed about it every time I posted by one of their mods, and nothing I said was good enough for them. Eventually I told him to cut the shit or ban me. I got the ban. I just wanted to go someplace where I could be anonymous and write happy things.

    There’s niche communities on Reddit that I really like. And the size of it leads to a certain level of anonymity. I can just be happy geeking out about something that makes me happy. Lemmy is just too small for such niche things to properly exist, and it got even smaller after the hexbear ban. I don’t care enough to evade it, and I want to continue writing my posts in daily us history once I’m mentally able again. If you enjoyed my posts, I’m sorry that I wasn’t strong enough to continue. But things are improving somewhat, and I hope to be more active again.

    Life in a small pond often leads to conflict, and I encountered it at a point when I just couldn’t handle it. Now I just want to talk to someone about chemistry (not really, but adjacent). I still keep up with the news, I still lurk here, and I still love you all. I’d rather just be anonymous right now for my own mental health.