TurtleCalledCalmie

I did that when i got laid off in January. Can recommend. Mental reset helps. Having no job helps with refocusing on whats really important, like own mental wellbeing, family and friends. Good times, tho i got pretty stressed out because searching for new job took a while, despite everyone else in IT got one in 15mins it seemed at the moment

Been there done that! 10years in company, we got downsized, got thrown away like a trash. Took months to deal with emotions and set myself to do anything. In the end I realized that I was relying on job to be an anchor in my life that everything was revolving around. Losing that anchor forced me to search for a new one, more reliable and something that I can control and that makes me better.
I started with cleaning my house, then deep cleaning shelves and such, then basement, etc. Got interested in working out, and started doing pushups and such. I learned that I was missing that - creating my own schedule, having goals of my own. It was scary at first, ngl. Trying to do small steps, very small sometimes, that improves your situation bit by bit is what I found helps me with being overwhelmed.

Wish you all the best, I hope you recover soon and find better job soon :)

Going to the gym first time. I am 35, sitting behind my pc since i was 10. After going out and training for several months now my back doesn’t hurt anymore, so i recommend :)

Gg on beating that cancer <3

In polish we do prefix po-. Jutro being tomorrow. Overmorrow would be pojutrze, after tomorrow, where you can stack one or two more, but ye more for comedic effect :)

Since i started going to gym and do squats my lower back stopped hurting, thank you very much. But yup my fav was robot one and hand one. I have vouge memory that there was an animation from time to time, but that might be Mandela effect. Good times being a child and pcs being full of magic :3

I’m at 35, still full of shit, but indeed getting it sorted out and pulling my shit together is a theme since last couple of years.

I also make computers do beep boop :). Wish you many good years before you <3

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Going thru similar shit right now myself I found an anchor in working out. I started from total zero - zero push ups, zero pull ups, zero sqats, zero crunches. I can do most of these now, with pullups to go still. But I also got into better mindset and learning discipline too. Good stuff that I’ve neglected for 20+ years.

I was in similar situation, where I would sleep off daytime, then it messed up my sleep schedule for years. I got better once I realized that I am a zombie in that state. I advise going for a walk. Try to go a bit further every day. Just stop outside, it’s funny to go home instantly, so have to walk for a minute. The this has two benefits - cardio on fresh air is good for physical health and makes you tired for the night, and for me it brought relief from mental pressure and gave space that I am safe to think about difficult stuff. There is something in act of moving that help with the head. It’s also nice anchor - you are in control of his much you walk, where you walk, just do it, like guy from memes.

Be kind to yourself <3

You were gaining exp in opsec by doing that :D

Thanks!
It took many years to start to know myself, I neglected myself by improperly understanding stoicism that correlated with some mental issues and low self esteem. Many triggers I had I just broke thru with pain, always felt exhausted. There was no sense of accomplishment in the struggle as things I struggle with are normal things for regular people, that’s what I told myself, so I should not make a fuss.
It takes a lot of effort to have compassion for one self.

First, some background: Feeling stupid can happen because when you feel anxiety, your frontal lobe (where you think) turns off. Anxiety is a form of fight or flight, and when that kicks in, your amygdalas (base of brain) block off the thinking part of your brain.

TIL, thank you <3

This one paragraph explained a lot for me why during my anxiety attacks I feel like I cannot do anything. I gonna try to rationalize this information next time it triggers. Recently I had good results with doing long walks (compared to my sitting life) with doggo.
I find it helpful in two ways - when I already got an attack I go with him to stop. This one is kinda coping mechanism to get away from the trigger.
Other thing is I started to make it into my routine to go on longer walks, and during them I explore some topics I find uncomfortable and it makes them less threatening than when I sit at home. The goal is to get accustomed to the feeling, take it in environment that is safe space to explore it. I want to be able to identify it and then maybe could teach myself to react differently, instead of crippling myself.

I know you have Kraków spelled basically the same, in Illinois iirc. Which is nice 🙂

Just to add to this. Take a nice shower, eat something light, wear comfy cloths, and take your trip. Stay safe, enjoy, and have bottle of water with you :)

I managed finally to set up several VMs and connect them into kubernetes cluster so I can learn that tech properly. I come from one or two layers below, I’ve been Linux admin who touched Ansible and did some open stack ocherstration but never had opportunity to go higher due to the project specific issues. So here I am, in theory a senior, learning popular tech which is required from juniors. Humbling experience, and NGL after 30 it’s getting harder, but it’s still fun.

For details if anyone is interested I made six vms, one serves haproxy, two are worker VM, three are controller. They are connected into network, and I run kubespray to create cluster from that. All localhost which is nice. I make small readme on it to later format and put ^^ I had issues with set up like WSL having python3.8 and kubespray refusing to find pip deps, which I figure more people might encounter if they experiment. And as admin, for me it was always the greatest hussle to setup the toolset, all later steps are a breeze compared.

Kubernetes seems cool :3