Asking for help us a sign if strength, not weakness.

I know that because i find it extremely hard to ask for help.

Rest days are important! Depending on what you’re doing of course but ya need to rest

Good luck on the throne

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_suicide_crisis_lines

I’m really convinced everyone in my life really sees me as a full time chore

I can all but guarantee you’re the only one in your life who thinks that. I know someone a little bit like that (thinking everyone is just being nice when they’re actually annoyed) and it’s steady work to make them feel loved.

We don’t do that shit because we have to - we don’t - we do it out of real love.

Suicidal thoughts aren’t a scheme, you didn’t chose to feel this way. Which means you’re not an abuser for feeling them.

The rest if your paragraph goes a bit off the rails, not sure how literal you mean it though.

There’s no Truman Show, no psyop, no great charade.
What people do in real life when they hate someone is they stop engaging. If any of your friends got tired of you you’d notice. They’d disappear from your circles.

Lastly, please take care of yourself.

You seem aware of your struggles, so if you are in a position able to seek help please do so. No, you’re not wasting anyone’s time, it’s ltierally therapists job to figure out how to help people.

They chose this job, and they will do it as long as necessary.

In that case, maybe check if a nearby gym has free trials or affordable sessions with a coach.

Sometimes exercises are a bit unintuitive and need attention to specific movements.

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2024/nov/01/ukraine-war-briefing-western-allies-response-to-north-korean-deployment-is-zero-zelenskyy-says

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Almost like Vraska and Jace from MtG

Ignore my previous attemot at this comment, I’m too tired

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I definitely read the book, which was an ok spooky adventure novel more than the moody horror of the shining.

Hill house was BRUTAL. Definitely the scariest among his stuff, though i havent watched house usher yet.

Same as “re-education” of any type.

Its a concerted effort to eradicate the local culture and assimilate the youths.

Its cultural genocide

Observer by the same dev was also pretty great!

A cyberpunk / bladerunner detective spin on the genre

Didn’t know that feature was in yet! Maybe it was just not on thunder yet but i remember people wishing for it.

Definitely gonna try that for a bit

Yeah you’ll get it :)
and if you don’t, ask for help. Most people can relate anyway.

I was out for ~6 months a while back. I put a schedule on my calendar, so every day had some structure. Get up at 8 or 9, breakfast, practice an instrument, game time, lunch, write applications, gym, dinner.

Did the same through the lockdowns and some structure really helps.

The Ma’am the myth the legend is right there though :D

For sure, had a bit of a eureka moment at the gym myself recently :D its a huge muscle so it can support quite a lot

Fair enough, im still curious

What was wrong with fellowship for you? I know its a slow book but haven’t heard someone actively hate it