I’ve been slamming it into walls and hurling it at the ground this past week. I’m also dying if it manages to fall in one of the countless holes in the wall as well. I’ll break everything I own and cut myself up in the process. My hands and arms are so sore but I still make it to work.
Yeah I’ve been abusing my belongings and regretting it. I just see red and nothing else.
What happened happened, but try to look forwards rather than backwards! Try to have a session with a professional to better understand for yourself what causes that mood and to work out some strategies to better cope with it. I’m sure it can be hard to make that first step but I’m sure it will pay out in the longterm.