

Not the poster but jellybeans were great for me. Just a pure sugar hit to self sooth. It’s ok to have a vice for a while as you quit.
Also, you reminded me that one of the biggest hurdles I need to get over personally is not completely giving up after the first slip.
This is a huge and necessary step mentally. It’s not a given you will use the drug again, but you might. If you do there is no need to throw the baby out with the bathwater. any break is progress and helps to decondition your brain. Stumbling is part of life, we learn to walk by figuring out all the different ways to fall over.
Even if the worst happens and you resume the addiction, take a compassionate and critical eye. What worked? what didn’t? how can you do better? You’ve got some past attempts under your belt already and those are not failures they are valuable lessons. You know yourself better, you know some of your triggers, you will do better this time.
haruspex of the modern age